i wanna die young

I wanna die YOUNG

Springs and summers have passed me by,
This autumnal melancholy questions me why
And what is still there to live for ?
Those good times are not coming back anymore.
Then why hang on for the long,lonely winter ahead,
For which even nature preapares, their leaves ,the trees shed,
While animals hibernate,why should I brave the cold?
My story is long over,nothing remains unanswered, untold.


I wanna die young,though not youthful anymore, am I,
Convoluted,jumbled,meaningless life ,a veritable pigsty,
My youth and the happy seasons didn’t coincide
Exciting adolescence ,then a steep,irreversible,down slide,
I never sinned,hurt no one,broke not one heart,
Pray tell me,then why did He overturn my apple cart.
Maybe some error resulted in this lesser- man made,
For His mistake ,with tears of blood ,this imperfection paid.

I absolve u and all,and Almighty of my impending end, (mediocrities everywhere,i absolve u)
N' depart my love,since our love shant ever be mend,
My unclaimed heart still writhes in pain,
Not u, my selfless ,ceaseless love is to blame,
When the prime of my life gave me heartbreak and exile,
Perforated intellect,insipid work,and disasters stockpile,
I give in as I see, no more tenure on earth wud I enjoy,
Its some grand design,almighty's sadist ploy.


I am a "dead man walking"; reconciled, waiting for angels to come,
Its not the END I fear,just that the last few miles are troublesome.
So as I fag-up my last joint ,and enjoy the last bout of booze,
The angels wait,as the last drops of my life,out, does ooze.
Self-willed tears in my eyes,and forced smile on my lips,
Still on that divine countenance ,this lover -lost trips.
Promise,as I float in my waters ,and reach the far off lands,
Postcards from every unknown,to you would this `'lovetrotter' send.


*DEAD MAN WALKING is a slang term shouted by the prison guards when the convict is being taken frm his cell to the execution chamber.
** thanx sidartha mishra...who silenced a lady who was showing concern over his chain smoking,in goa...AUNTY,i wanna die young!.....that was a magic moment....