heartships

The hardships you face in life ,on account of your heart ,are heartships.From coronary disorders to emotional ones ,and including side -effects like poetry,addiction to pain and career-wreakage,or even doping ....all can be classified under HEARTSHIPS.

a cold,dark,lonely december morning
reefer madness upon me, who has lost someone close
muzaffarnagar.....

......."all i m left with is a heart that refuses to stop beating,n the heartships that i face".........

.....Am I burning,or bleeding on the inside?
Nourishing the soul,
but flogging my own hide,
I smoke away my pains,
My eyes back it up with rains,
I ,hereby,abdicate my claim on life,
Only if i must ,would i survive.

Ease ,comfort and happiness,the ideals of PIGSTY,
My lips smile,then why does my heart cry?
As i trip on you,and gaze into your eyes,
I see what i want to see,can anyone deny?(me)(this pleasure,this privilege)

A blue ships sails on your face,
All around ,this dark; dark haze
Clouds my vision,closes my eyes,
But that dumb yawn of yours,
Brings me back to life.
So much to live for,so much more to die,
The punies,and the minions,
are the ones who thrive.

My heartbeats, my heartships , my own to savour,
Collected from dew,my love's lost labour,
I m the sun,they r my sunlight,
Its the moments as these,that keep me alive.
Dark is getting darker,hazier haze,
has become my life ,a jumbled maze.

The blood would clot,the heart would heal,
There would be no more pain to feel
If i banish u frm my thoughts,
My floods wud turn into droughts,
BUT I know ,I won't ever turn the page,
This hurt,this pain,wud make me a sage.....

A hurt,lost person.....on a hi (tripping)....on a cold,lonely winter morning.....missing someone badly....bleeding due to injury.smoking ,burning hislife away.Norishing the soul by fumes,memories,poetry,but losing his health in the bargain.Tears .more of them.More tears.Lost the will to live.But looking for excuses to just hang in there.Addicted to pain,knows that now all is lost n the only way out is forgetting that person,but enjoys the bleeding and the injury,the pain.